Why is this so very hard?

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Why is this so very hard?

by Miles Farthing on Thursday, April 8, 2010 at 5:46pm

I try to do what is best, and it seems to only break my heart!
I wonder if what I am doing is staying within your chart.
God, I know you have something great in stored for us all.
I guess I am just still very blinded from my fall.
My first reaction is to try and help my self up,
but this never leads to getting a fill in my cup.
I have made this trip before,
and I have found only you can pick me up from this floor.
My Faith stumbles from time to time,
but you always have some way to remind.
My mind ponders over the future a lot,
especially now about tying the knot.
Although that time is far away,
I worry as if it is today!
I start to feel alone and scared,
and then you show me you are there.
Giving my heart to you is the best thing I can ever do.
But sharing my heart with someone else,
this seems very important too.
I know I am in love as we speak,
but is she the one that will help me climb this tall peak?
Or is this man’s journey meant to be with only you?
I guess right now I need a lot of patience, and hope too.
God, you showed me love, and what it is all about.
Then why is it now, I am having my doubts.